Wednesday, December 29, 2004
meeting farah later on. after that meet my sugarlicious hunneh. he's out!! ahaha. finally.. yay.
watched the news abt the earthquake at this wadeva country. how sad. my heart goes out to 'em. heee.. but it's really saddening to see families split up, babies dying. now i noe how fortunate am i.. hais. pray for them yes?
gonna bathe and get out of da house! so.. ciaos.
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
2 days at home and i'm still counting. i feel that i've neglected muh friends. haha.. whenever dear's out, i'm out. when he's in, i'm home. everyday just rot at home. stupid audrey. rot more and u'll grow fatter! arghh.. nonono!! i dun wan! i dun wan! i dun wan!! i wanna paint my room to pass my time, also change the apple green. it's gettin bored. but the stupid man in da house just disagree..!! pui! y cant he just get lost, though he's muh dad. but i dun treat him as one anyway.
i miss muh dearie so much. im waiting for thurs, so dear can book out.. heee. he's such a nice guy. better, even nicer than the nicest person in the world. i lurrrve him sooooo much...!
Sunday, December 26, 2004
great. dad's home and i cant go out late anymore. he'll only be going overseas on the 1oth next month! wad shait.. now ive got prob meeting dearie late at nite, even hanging out late with muh cousins. hais. and he came back at the wrong time! now's da festive season, everyone's out celebrating. dearie and i went to esplanade to slack again. den he went to meet his dad for dinne, after that book in at nite. i'm really gonna miss him..
oh yes, new year's coming and my resolutions for the upcoming yr are as follows::
`do well for my O's
`be a super good gf to muh darling
`slim down super lots
`practice muh piano regulary and take muh exam
`quit smoking
`wait for muh dar to finish his studies for 3yrs overseas. dear, i'm so afraid that i cant do it. but i'll try my very best.
this christmas is muh best christmas in muh life, i should say.. received many gifts and the best gift was muh honey sweetie darling dearie. haha.. dear got me something sooo special n i simply love the note in it. how sweet of him. went partying at rena's place on christmas eve. had so much fun.. after that we went to town at around 1am+ i think. town was like.. CRAZY! it seem to resemble those undeveloped countries. haha.. so dirty, so corrupted, so messy! everyone was so high that they started spraying those foamy thingy and crazy ribbons. we had nothing much to do cos so crowded n so crazy.. how to walk?! den we went kbox to sing our asses out. spent 317 bucks for 8 ppl!! omg. i'm broke. had soooo much fun with dear, rena, andy and ling zi. haha.. reached home at 7am and jitao drop dead after shower. super tired after all the singing, dancing, crapping, laming, blah. woke up around 5? went to northpoint to slack.. den tio fine by HSA for underaged smoking lor.. shit. 30bucks gone. just got back from kevin's place. awww.. how nice. his birthday falls on x'mas. my eyes are closing soon.. lastly, happy birthday to kevin and a BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!!
to those who sent me x'mas greetings:: sorry for not replying. hahas... but i just wanted to say merry christmas tooooooo!!!
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
last night crashed town again with muh sweetie. it's kinda bored u see.. everyday town, town and it's still town. but i still love it.. muahaha. after that both of us went to slack at esplanade, again. soooo relaxing. dear was going crazy, i dunno y. he was going "tell my baby she's not fat.." with the tune of "put ur head on my shoulder". repeating this again and again.. den later its like wtf! ....it's not very nice to say it here.. but girls u should understand when ur period comes. xD
reached home at i think ard 4.30am? blah blah.. mummy was so nice. she paid my hp bill for me.. hahaha. i saved 240bucks!! ..who cares anyway. gonna grab muh dearie a present for x'mas later. i just hate to buy gifts for guys.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
i'm going crazy! someone please tell me why girls have period.. why, WHY, WHY?! y cant the guys just have menses n reproduce? this is so unfair. i'm getting muh stomach cramps every now and then, and this stupid da yi ma of mine just have to visit me at the wrong time! ouhkayy..fine. every month we have to lose so much blood, wad if some woman just die on the streets due to loss of blood? wad if the red blood cells in woman becomes extinct? arghh.. this is getting on my nerves. and we have to waste money every month to get sanitary pads, disposable underwears, blah blah.. wtf. and we cant go swimming, cant have fun, cant do this, cant do that. i'm so irritated. everyone who doesnt have menses, please just fuck off!! muahahahaha....
apology for guys.. but if someone wants to have menses on my behalf den i'll marry u and be ur slave!! den i'll nv get married. =x
Monday, December 20, 2004
feeling so depressed these days. maybe im suffering from serious depression. i've decided to quit smoking. yes, and ive not touched even one stick for the whole day. someone just take a knife and stab me in my heart. it makes no difference in others' life when i die anyway. the whole world is against me. life is just so fucked up.. seriously, LET ME DIE.
i realised i'm so fickle-minded. 1 min thinking of this, the other min thinking of that. hais.. really dunno wad to do.
dear.. dont feel sad just because u aint here when i'm happy, worse when i'm sad. i'm not blaming u at all.. =)
im feeling so stressed up. the whole world is going against me. it's like WTF MAN. they wan me to retake my N's and do my O's. ppl at home saying this, ppl at church are still saying this. it's my life.. y do i have to care wad ppl think? y do i have to go against myself? i'll rather go straight to do O's privately. i'm gonna pia my life studying. even if i fail, at least i tried. forget it.. frustrations, mood swings, fucked up attitude - one after another are coming up. sorry dear.. i'm so guilty. u'll have to face a bitter gourd for the nxt few days.
town was soooooo packed. literally packed!! i didnt even have the space to walk (maybe i was too fat) and the air to breathe. but it's soooo happening. parade, carollings, sales and shopping. dear and i walked almost the whole of orchard.
my uncle got admitted to hospital due to heart attack. but thank god. he went for the op and god was with him all along. he's fine!! yay..!! really have to praise god for all the living testimonies and miracles he's done to my family. he's just so awesome.
Sunday, December 19, 2004
im blogging now at.. hmm.. 11.58pm, 18 dec o4 =x. dear and i talked about everything under the
thinking of dear.. i'm getting worried when he goes to US to further his studies nxt aug. it's gonna be hard for both of us, provided if we have the chance to last till then. 3 yrs. how am i gonna survive? not only that. i'm so afraid to imagine him loving another. i'm so afraid to let go. i'm so afraid to lose. let God decide.. i'm sure He has a way.
Friday, December 17, 2004
ELEVEN. just 1 more to O's. looking at some of my friends cried, the fear inside me was getting bigger and bigger. tears flowed down my cheeks even before i got my results. i waited. now, it's my turn.
"audrey, you passed all ur subjects.." i was so delighted.
"..but u didnt managed to get on to O's." i was speechless. "remember we made some options? it's not the end of the world." that was wad miss tan said.
i looked back. referring to my school exams, none of them were as good as this. i've never ever passed each and every one subject in my sec sch life. having this thought, i felt better. maybe i should just pick up some skills like hairstyling.. life has to go on. private O's are a waste of everything for me.
now's nagging time. too bad i dont have a microphone or i'll put my mum's voice up. she's not nagging bcos i didn't make it. just that it's about the choice between hairstyling and O's. ENOUGH! i'm gonna follow where my heart goes - hairstyling.
waiting for dear to book out. he's staying over muh place tonight. im glad that i've found him. he's always there for me... thx dear.. i love you.
got muh tattoo today.. dragged joan & kailing along.. wahahas. it wasnt as painful as i expected though. realised that ive got almost da same one as audree's. that makes us more like twins.
this is mine. and it's copyright.
close up view. not very nicely done cos dunno y got a shock and i moved. -.-"
dree's tattoo.
ouhkay. enuff of that. it's 4.28am and im still here admiring body arts. lols.. wad an ass. dear's booking out
N's result are out. gotta go skool n collect 'em later. GOD BLESS AUDREY.
Monday, December 13, 2004
went to catch bridget jones with dear n joan last nite. wad a funny show.. joan and i were laughing our asses off.. haha. after that went to meet rena and andy for dinner. dear went home cos he had to book in at nite. arghh. miss him so much..
Saturday, December 11, 2004
weeeee.. had greeeat fun last nite with dearie.. went to catch Blade; Trinity. i wanted to watch Incerdibles but no more seats available le.. den he la.. wanna watch that show.. at first i was thinking wad kind of show is that. but it was not bad except some parts are really grooooss! omg. after that we walked to dhoby gauht and it started raining. wtf. so both of us waited n waited..yay.. finally stopped. he's such a sweeet guy. he was the first guy to send me home till my doorstep. how nice of him. gonna meet joan for lunch later. ciao.. i miss muh dear dear
Thursday, December 09, 2004
wow.. had soooo much fun for the past few days during da church camp. got to noe ppl alot better.
DAY 1:
arrived at church around 8+am and we reached our destination ard.. forgot. haa.. had great fun with the United Eyes! [when the eyes unite, we become pajiao]. slept at 1+ and woke up 7.30 the nxt day to have QT.
DAY 2:
apparently having the same routine. just that we had the telematch.. but we lost =(
DAY 3:
we won the talent-time!! hahas..actually the skit was quite a lame one though. it's about a good eye and the bad eye. yupp. was quite an irritating day for me. all our rooms's tv couldnt receive the sg channel so i went over to jason's room n watch. and this particular lamer (let's not mention names) came in and she was jealous so just somehow got the wrong idea. awhile later kevin came in and told us wad that lamer spreaded ard the youths and so the hot topic was this ridiculous thingy. wad's wrong with watching tv with a good friend? madass lamer girl. at least rena, adeline and jason understands me - prolly because they're all above 20 =x n thinks differently from those bunch of gossip-mongers. yay..3 cheers for them. haha. partially because of this incident ive become hostile to that lamer. but i dun wish to watse my time on her anyway. wadeva.
DAY 4:
headed for home.
Friday, December 03, 2004
yoo hoo..! had a great game of pool at OCC today with pris, jo, xiaoming and xiaohei. hais.. sometimes i dunno y i have to help someone to lie to another. after telling one lie we have to tell the 2nd lie to cover da 1st.. i cant take it. i just hate lying to someone else when it's not muh prob at all. forget it.
huiling's back! after 4 mths missin' her, she's finally out!! yay.. i miss u girl..~
going to pulau ubin tmr to cycle. weeee!! the guys are goin' fishin. haha.. -.-" gotta go bathe now. tata..
Thursday, December 02, 2004
TAUFIK BATISAH. i knew it baby. i knew he would win. he's soooo cute!!! his smile, his charm, his singing, his everything! rawk on taufik!
Ken Lim: "you are not a good performer, but an exceptional one."
so happy that gay-ish sly didn't get in. cant imagine him representing sg to the world's idol. omg. and he's just.. an insult to jay chou when he sang an jing. insult to pink when his fans were wearing pink! wtf. and his hair - a lump of pure shit. i simply hate him to da bloody core of hell. and who the judge said his a chinese superstar? my ass! sly can just fark off, and he suck. BIG TIME.
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
YAWN~ it's 2.57pm and the lazy me just woke up. had great fun together with wendy, priscilla & zhe ting last nite. went to ktv and sang our asses off. didn't noe that a si paikia like zheting had such a wooonderful voice. hahas.. after that went to 925 to drink. pris was.. half drunk? hahas. reached home around.. 1am? got a naggin from mum and went to take a bathe. cant get to slp so.. i watched tv!! oh my. the show is like damn nice lor.. about undercover cops. but somehow i was i lil' afraid cos i was watching alone with the lights off. heh.
had a funny yet wonderful dream last nite. maybe u guys might think that im thinking too much. but i dreamt of... my bf was the guy who acted in The Champion. that swimming coach lah! =x muahaha.. so unexpected rite? he was like so damn loving to me and i fell deeeeeeeep in love with him. it's been so long ever since i had that feeling okie! hmmph. wakakaka.. den suddenly woke up in the middle of the nite. FARK. my dream's over. went back to sleep and got a nightmare -.-". i was on a wooden platform in the ocean together with muh sis and dunno y got so many snakes swimming here n there.. yucks. so scary. but no one died nor came to our rescue. den dunno y the dream gone again.. haha. im abit too.. dreamy? lols.
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